For those who have known me very well since grade school, Most know how visually I was definitely not fat. I remember growing up thinking so, I never ever really felt comfortable in my body, but I was healthy. It wasn’t till after graduating high school and going off and getting married to the completely wrong guy that I became obsessed with how “Skinny” I felt. Looking back, I remember thinking I was fat. Just plain fat. No matter how much I worked out with “wrong guy” or how little I ate I was never happy with my results. In part I really believe his negative comments to me really broke me down and I began to believe that I was really fat, and the salad I ate was unnecessary because regardless of what I ate or how little I ate I would remain fat. As much as I want to put all the blame on him for making me so self conscious. There are a number of factors that had their involvement. 1. Society’s Idea of Skinny 2. Wrong Guy 3. Me. Why Me? Althought #1 &2 had a huge part in breaking me down, I had the choice of believing those negative comments and buying into Society’s way of thinking. I chose to believe I was fat. I could have easily looked in the mirror and open my eyes to the fact that I was not. I was healthy.
Now, a lot of weight gain and a pregnancy later I can say I truly don’t feel happy with my body image nor do I feel comfortable. I don’t care what other people think of how I look but I do care what I think.
This blog post series isn’t for you, it’s for me. Yes I said it. This is for me to help stop making excuses and start making changes to my life, my health. After giving birth to my son I had purchased the 21 Day Fix workout program with the thought of …well? Working out! I kept making excuses as to why I couldn’t find the time to utilize it. Well I am done.
I will not be trying to sell you on this product or talk you into starting this journey. This is for me to keep myself accountable. If I put it out there for the internet world to see that I am trying to get fit, and I try to skip a day… I’m going to be really embarrassed.
So here is what I’m going to be doing.
21 Day Fix + 2 Days a week work out programs at the Romeo Community Center (Fat Burn & Interval Training)
My end goal is to once I reach my target weight, I am going to book a Boudoir Session for myself with one of my favorite Boudoir Photographers to celebrate reaching my goal! Stretch marks and all! lol
Wish me luck in sticking to this journey!
Here are my before photos.
Total Body Cardio Fix : AWESOME! I feel great after working out… Before, I was still groggy from waking up, and felt gross after taking my before photos.
During the workout, my 10 month old took it upon himself to cheer me on by climbing all over me while I was trying to do the different crunches. If my husband was awake (he’s home from having surgery on his back) I would have asked if he could take a photo if he was feeling up to it. Oh well! Maybe next time!
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